DISRUPTING PERFECTION BY JAYN ANDERSON IS A SERIES OF ELEVEN BLACK AND WHITE MINIMALIST ABSTRACT PAINTINGS. EACH PRESENTS A STARK CONTRAST, NOT ONLY BETWEEN OPPOSITE ENDS OF THE COLOR SPECTRUM, BUT ALSO BETWEEN WHO WE ARE EXPECTED TO BE AND WHO WE REALLY ARE.
I ORIGINALLY INTENDED FOR THERE TO BE 12-16 PIECES IN THIS SHOW. HOWEVER, THE DEEPLY EMOTIONAL PROCESS RESULTED IN ELEVEN PAINTINGS. I HAD TO LAUGH BECAUSE HOW FITTING IS THAT THIS COLLECTION OF STRENGTH AND INNER HEALING WOULD RESULT IN ITS OWN NUMBER TO BE CHALLENGED AND DISAPPROVED OF. YET, I CHOSE TO STAY WITH THIS UNEVEN NUMBER AS IT SPEAKS FOR ITSELF. IT'S HIGHLY INDIVIDUALISTIC. IT'S UNEXPECTED. IT DOESN'T FOLLOW SOCIAL EXPECTATIONS. IT DOESN'T NEED TO BE SOMETHING IT'S NOT. SO, ELEVEN IS BOLDLY STANDING UP TO THE NORM AND SAYING I'M MY OWN. I AM ELEVEN. I AM COMPLETE.
CREATING THIS SERIES WAS DEEPLY EMOTIONAL, DEEPLY VULNERABLE AND DEEPLY PERSONAL. I BEGAN WITHOUT EXPECTATIONS OR INTENT. THE ONLY PART I PRE-PLANNED WAS THE CONSISTENT AND UNIFORM SIZE OF EACH CANVAS AND THE NUMBER OF CANVASES I BOUGHT, WHICH WAS SIXTEEN, BY THE WAY. I LET THE REST SPEAK FOR ITSELF. OVER THE COURSE OF ROUGHLY SIX MONTHS, I IMMERSED MYSELF DEEPLY INTO REFLECTION, SOLITUDE, MUSIC AND FREEDOM. I MADE SPACE FOR THE UNEXPECTED. THE UNKNOWN. THE UNACKNOWLEDGED. AT TIMES, IT FELT AS IF I WAS DROWNING, UNABLE TO MOVE FORWARD, UNABLE TO MAKE SENSE OF WHAT WAS EVOLVING. THE PROCESS WAS PAINFUL AND DOWNRIGHT DARK, AT TIMES. I DESPERATELY WANTED TO GIVE UP OR MAYBE JUST GIVE IN. BUT BY SOME MEANS I FOUND THE INNER STRENGTH TO KEEP GOING. TO CONTINUE TO UNVEIL AND UNRAVEL. TO PUSH MYSELF TO THE EDGE OF EMOTIONAL TOLERANCE. I FOUGHT WITH MYSELF. WITH MY IDEAS. MY PAST. MY PROGRESS. MY IMPERFECTION. MY FEAR. YET SOMEHOW NEVER LETTING THEM HAVE THE UPPERHAND. I ACKNOWLEDGED THEM AND RESPECTED THEIR PRESENCE. I EVEN THANKED THEM FOR THE ONCE VITAL ROLE THEY PLAYED IN MY LIFE AS I PUSHED THROUGH THEIR HEAVY WEIGHT TO THE END.
THESE ELEVEN PAINTINGS ARE REPRESENTATIVE OF MUCH MORE THAN THE EYE CAN SEE. THE STARK WHITE IDENTICAL CANVASES EACH PAINTED UNINHIBITEDLY AND INTUITIVELY WITH BLACK INDIA INK AND AN OLD, TATTERED PAINTBRUSH. AT FIRST GLANCE, THEY MAY ALL SEEM TO LOOK SIMILAR. HOWEVER, WITH A MORE INTENTIONAL LOOK, YOU CAN SEE THEIR VAST DIFFERENCES. THE COMPLEXITIES. THE MARKS. THE FLOW. THE COMPOSITION. YES, THEY ARE ALL ALIKE BUT EACH IS ITS OWN INDEPENDENT AND PROUDLY DIFFERENT PIECE. EACH ABLE TO STAND ALONE. TOGETHER OR APART, THEY SHOW WITH A HARMONY THAT IS CALMING AND PEACEFUL. ALMOST MESMERIZING. TOGETHER AS ONE, THEY MAKE A BOLD STATEMENT, THOUGH DELICATE AND UNDERSTATED. IT'S NOT SHOWY OR GRANDIOSE. LOOK BEYOND THE STARKNESS OF THE TWO COLORS. LET THE WHITE FADE AWAY, DRIFTING INTO THE BACKGROUND AS YOU ALLOW YOURSELF TO SEE THAT THE BLACK IS SUBTLE AND INTRICATE. WITH ITS OWN NUANCES AND UNIQUE BRUSHSTROKES. EACH PAINTING TELLS ITS OWN BEAUTIFUL STORY.
THESE ELEVEN PIECES ARE INTENTIONALLY AND THOUGHTFULLY UNTITLED. THEY DON'T NEED A TITLE OR A STATUS TO MAKE THEM BEAUTIFUL. OR IMPORTANT. OR WORTHY. THEY EACH OWN THEIR OWN PURPOSE AND POWER. THEY EACH ARE EXPRESSIVE IN THEIR OWN WAY. THEY CARRY THEIR OWN BALANCE. THEIR OWN VALUE. THEY DON’T NEED EACH OTHER TO FEEL COMPLETE YET THEY SHARE A DEEP AND MEANINGFUL BOND ALL TOGETHER.
THEY ARE PURPOSEFUL. DELICATE. EXPRESSIVE. UNBIASED. WILD. ROMANTIC. BOLD. ADVENTUROUS. MELANCHOLIC. INTENSE. EFFERVESCENT. SPONTANEOUS. INTERCONNECTED. AUTHENTIC. SENTIMENTAL.
THEY ARE ALL INDIVIDUAL
AND
THEY ARE ALL ACCEPTED
IT'S NO SECRET THAT BLACK IS MY FAVORITE COLOR. MUCH TO MANY PEOPLE'S MISUNDERSTANDING, IT'S NOT ABOUT THE STEREOTYPICAL SADNESS OR ANGER THAT BLACK IS OFTEN PORTRAYED AS. THIS DARK AND MYSTERIOUS COLOR EXUDES STRENGTH, COURAGE AND UNIQUENESS. IT'S ABOUT FEELING LIFE OPENLY AND DEEPLY. IT’S LOVING WILDLY WITH ABANDON. IT'S REBELLIOUS AND FEARLESS. IT’S COMFORTABLE AND SAFE. AND UNFORTUNATELY, IT’S OFTEN MISUNDERSTOOD.
FOR ME, IT'S ABOUT EMBRACING THE COMPLEXITIES, THE MYSTERIES AND THE PROVIDENCE OF THE COLOR BLACK.
COMPLETING THIS SERIES HAS BROUGHT ME NEW LIGHT. NEW PERSPECTIVE. NEW JOY. NEW RESOLVE. NEW LIFE. I AM WHOLEHEARTEDLY GRATEFUL FOR THIS DEEPLY INTIMATE AND EMPOWERING JOURNEY THIS COLLECTION REPRESENTS.
LIVE YOUR OWN TRUTH. YOUR OWN COLOR. YOUR OWN BLACK.
- JAYN ANDERSON
VISIT THE VIRTUAL GALLERY
DEEPLY EMOTIONAL
DEEPLY VULNERABLE
DEEPLY PERSONAL
UNLEARNING
REVEALING
DETACHING
INWARD OUTWARD STRUGGLE
INTERNAL VS EXTERNAL
WHITE – REFLECTS LIGHT, PURITY, PROJECTS ANGELIC WHOLENESS, UNSTAINED
BLACK – ABSORBS LIGHT, EMOTIONS, DARKNESS, DIFFICULTY, DEEPLY PROFOUND
BLACK AND WHITE ARE THE EXCEPTION TO THE PRISM OF COLOR.
WHITE IS ALL COLORS REFLECTED, SHOWING OFF ALL THE COLORS OF THE SPECTRUM TO MAKE HERSELF BRIGHT AND ILLUMINATING
BLACK IS THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE WITH ALL COLORS ABSORBED, HIDING THEIR COLOR, THEIR SECRETS IN HER DARKNESS
WHITE IS PERFECTLY CURATED TO PRESENT PERFECTION
BLACK IS SOLITUDE, FREEDOM. A SAFE PLACE.
JUST ME AND MY LOVE FOR BLACK
IF YOU ARE FAMILIAR WITH THE LAST STAR WARS TRILOGY – THE CONFLICTED, EMOTIONAL STRUGGLE OF KYLO REN’S DEEPLY DESPERATE AND SOMETIMES VIOLENT TORMENT OF BEING PULLED BETWEEN THE LIGHT AND DARK IS A SIMILARITY I RELATE TO MORE THAN I’D LIKE TO ADMIT.
BEING CAUGHT BETWEEN TWO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT WORLDS
THE PULL BETWEEN THE POLAR OPPOSITES OF LIGHT AND DARK
IT’S NOT ABOUT APPEARANCES OR GOOD VS EVIL.
IT’S THE STRUGGLE, THE MENTAL ANGUISH,
THE REVEALING OF THE HIDDEN AND RAW LAYERS,
THE ACCEPTANCE THAT IT IS ITS OWN DEFINITION OF BEAUTY.
RELEASING THE WHITE.
EMBRACING THE BLACK.
RELEASING THE EXPECTATION.
EMBRACING THE TRUTH.
YOUR OWN TRUTH. FREELY. PEACEFULLY. WHOLLY.
THE PURE WHITE UNTOUCHED BACKGROUND
STARK CONTRAST TO THE JET BLACK INK
BRUSHED ON WITHOUT THOUGHT
WITHOUT REASON
WITHOUT A PLAN
LETTING THE BLACK OVERTAKE THE BLANK BRIGHT WHITE
ALLOWING THE DARK INK TO DISRUPT THE PURE NATURE OF THE SOLID ILLUMINATING WHITE
INTENTIONALLY YET INSTINCTIVELY MARRING THE PURENESS
DISRUPTING THE EXPECTATION
DISRUPTING THE NORM
THE COMFORTABLE
THE FACADE
THE SO CALLED PERFECT
FEARLESSLY SHOWING UP IN ALL BLACK’S DARKNESS, MELANCHOLY AND VAST EMOTION STANDING OUT BOLDLY AND STARKLY AGAINST THE BLAND CURATED, BLAH BORING PERFECT WHITE CANVAS
NOTHING IS REALLY WHITE THOUGH. PURE WHITE. THERE IS ALMOST ALWAYS SOME OTHER SHADE OR COLOR BLENDED INTO OR TINTING THE WHITE. YET IT'S STILL CALLED WHITE. IT'S A LIE. A FAKE. AN IMPOSTER.
WHITE IS NEVER JUST PURE UNADULTERATED WHITE. IT'S ALWAYS INFLUENCED BY THE PRISM OF COLORS.
YET SO MANY STILL CALL THESE OFF SHADES, THESE BLEMISHED COLORS, WHITE.
I'M TIRED OF WHITE. WHITE IS BORING AND FAKE AND THE GOOD GIRL. THE PEOPLE PLEASER. THE YES MAN. THE APPEARANCE DRIVEN FALSE PERFECTION.
BLACK IS BOLD. DARK WITH UNTOUCHED DEPTH. COMPLEXITIES SO VAST AND WIDE THEY CAN NOT BE DESCRIBED. UNTAMED. RAW. AND OFTEN SEEN AS SADNESS, ANGER OR SOMETHING SCARY OR BAD. UNCOMFORTABLE TO OTHERS.
YET (TO ME) IT FEELS LIKE BELONGING. A HOME THAT NOTHING ELSE CAN EVER COME CLOSE TO ACHIEVING. THERE’S NO COMPARISON. IT'S A FEELING OF SOFTNESS, SECURITY, CALM COMFORT, LIKE WARM WILD FLAMES. IT'S REBELLIOUS AND STRONG. ENVELOPES UNTOUCHABLE HAPPINESS
I'LL TAKE DEPTHS OF BLACK OVER THE PERFECT, UNBLEMISHED, POLISHED, PRISTINE, WHITE – ANY DAY – EVERY TIME.
THESE PAINTINGS SHOW THE BLACK COMING IN FEARLESSLY AND DISRUPTING THE PURENESS OF THE WHITE. CHANGING THE VISUAL, WHERE THE EYES GOES, WHAT THE EYE SEES. THE SOLID WHITE BACKGROUND IS NO LONGER WHAT YOU SEE. THE BLACK IN PREVAILS. THE MIND PROCESSES AND EVALUATES THE BLACK MARKS. THE WHITE IS JUST THERE, BLENDING IN WITH ALL THE REST. IT NO LONGER STANDS OUT. THE WHITE CONFORMS. THE BLACK DISRUPTS IN THE MOST BEAUTIFUL ARTISTIC CAREFREE CREATIVE MOVEMENT. IT'S POWERFUL. IT'S FEARED. IT'S STRONG. IT KNOWS ITS STRENGTH. ITS POWER. ITS INFLUENCE. AND YET, IT HAS NO NEED TO SHOW OFF OR BOAST. IT’S SMOOTH AND SOFT. LOOK BEYOND THE COLOR TO SEE THE DELICATE LINES, THE COMFORTABLE STROKES. THE CONFIDENT YET GENTLE MARKS. FREE FLOWING WITH INTRICATE DETAILS. THE BLACK IS PROUDLY AND HUMBLY STANDING IN ITS POWER. IT'S CONFIDENCE. IT'S TRUTH. IT’S BEAUTY.
THE BLACK ACKNOWLEDGES AND VALUES THE WHITE AS THIS IS WHAT HELPS DISPLAY HER BEAUTY. HER BOLDNESS. HER VOICE. HER LOVE. HER LAYERS. SHE FLOWS IN HER CONFIDENCE. SHE IS ALL ENCOMPASSING AND YET INTROSPECTIVE, SENSITIVE AND INTUITIVE. SHE'S A DEEP FEELER. A LOVER. A GIVER. A HEALER. SHE’S POWERFUL YET SOFT AND GENTLE. CONFIDENT YET EVER CHANGING. SHE'S A SAFE SPACE FOR ALL THE OTHER COLORS TO HIDE AND BE SEEN.
ACCEPTING OF ALL
RESPECTING OF ALL
EMBRACING OF ALL
AND STILL TRUSTING HER IN OWN TRUTH, HER OWN DARKNESS, HER OWN APPEARANCE.
LOVING HERSELF AS IS. ACCEPTING HERSELF AS IS.
LOVING THE BLACK.
HER BLACK.
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ABOUT THE ARTIST
Jayn Anderson is a North Carolina based abstract painter. She spent her childhood on the East Coast before moving to England to study. During her years there, Jayn was afforded many opportunities to travel, including several solo trips. Some of her most memorable travels were to Mallorca, Ireland, Israel, Uruguay and the Czech Republic, as well as many other spectacular locations. These deeply meaningful experiences continue to shape the work that Jayn creates today.
Jayn embraces the inherent chaos of life, thriving in ever-changing environments. Her work mirrors this spontaneity and energy in every mark that she paints. Jayn has a fiercely independent spirit, with an empathetic, old soul. She uses music as a vessel to channel her experiences and the emotions they evoke into her artwork. She prefers not to think about what she’s creating but instead letting intuition and automation be her guide.
When she’s not creating, Jayn enjoys reading, exploring nature and staying active while spending time with her family.
"My work is inspired by life experiences, emotions, music and how they all relate to fundamental humanness. I create to uncover the deeply personal and at times, uncomfortable parts of life. Through my work, I strive to present a visual language that we can all relate to on a deeper level. My desire is to provide a safe space for others to feel the freedom and vulnerability to connect to their innermost thoughts.
I approach my work with an intuitive mindset, embracing the raw and expressive nature of abstract painting. Through my paintings, I reveal a complex and honest understanding of life through color, brushstroke, and spontaneous mark-making. Music is an integral part of my process, and sets the foundation for the work that I create. Connecting to music evokes and guides a tangible state of uninhibited authenticity. Each painting then becomes a visual representation of the lyrics and insight that inspired it.
My intention is to explore my own experiences, and in doing so, give the viewer unspoken permission to do the same. To celebrate the intrinsic parts of life that are often hard to articulate with words. I am deeply rooted in encouraging and supporting others to find the courage to discover their own voice and embrace the inherent chaos of life. I wholeheartedly believe that when openly flawed humans come together and share their strengths and weaknesses, we can unite and uplift each other in a community of acceptance and love."
